Reality is overrated

I became completely and totally obsessed with a certain fanfiction I am reading. I have turned it into a trippy sneaker and have been re-writing alot of it in order to make it fit. I would never release my re-write online. It isn’t for anyone else to read but me. And it is completely someone else’s idea so I can’t take any credit for it.

But I have been having so much fun… I have had trouble thinking about anything else. Which means that my apartment became a mess again. (I have since cleaned it back up though) and I have been putting off other responsibilities. Such as taking my phone back to Verizon, and calling the student loan people.

But with the fic and the new season of Supernatural starting…I have had absolutely zero desire to live in the real world.

I have been on this dose of meds for about two months now. And I am pretty sure they are not working. It wouldn’t be so easy for me to become obsessed if they were. My next appointment is in a couple of weeks.. I have a feeling she will be increasing them again. Hopefully the next dose up will work better.

And I decided that I was willing to try getting back into counseling, but when I called about it.. they told me that the program that I was under that paid my co-payments wasn’t doing that anymore.. so in order to see a counselor..I will have to pay a $50 co-pay out of my pocket. Which I can not afford. Especially since this means that my co-pay for my p-doc visits are no longer covered. So I will be paying that $50 out of my pocket too from now on. There is no way I can afford that AND $50-$100 a week on counseling.
I barely have enough money for food now as it is.